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| recently ive noticed that ive been making a big deal out of a lot of things
especially since exams are here too...its making me feel really uptight a lot of the time
i know im really not that kind of girl who is all wound up and moody
im a happy person and im happy with who i am as a person.
why is it just now that im starting to question things?....being all philosophical isnt really my thing.
life is suppose to be simple.
anyhow, i guess i just have to loosen up.
...better do it in time for Christmas! since its only the best time of the year ever. | | |
| oh puhleez, just grow a pair | | |
| i cant work, read, study...or concentrate at all for that matter
seems like my mind keeps going back to the same thing...pretty much every day.
sometimes more than once a day..and on the BAD days, 2-3 times.
its such a waste of time and energy that could be spent working (which is far more important)
the only time it doesn't happen is when I'm with friends, so I'm very thankful for them
How can i get past this? doesnt make any sense at all..its quite pathetic. lol
anyhow, i have 2 papers, an exam on friday..gotta work hard and get good marks
hopefully my mind wont wander off again.
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| And when it rains on this side of town
It touches everything
Just say it again and mean it
We don't miss a thing
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
of the blackest hole
and convinced yourself
that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore
and no, oh how could you do it
oh I, I never saw it coming
no, oh I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain
And when it rains
You always find an escape
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
Of the blackest hole
And you'll sleep till May
You'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore
and no, oh how could you do it
oh I, I never saw it coming
no, oh I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain
Take these chances to turn it around
Take these chances we'll make it somehow
And Take these chances and turn it around
Just turn it around.
You can take your time, take my time.
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| So for the past few weeks, mel and i have been doing devos on 1 Peter. It completely struck me as so how applicable it is to the things that are happening here at Queens. It talks about being an alien to this world because we ultimately belong to God's kingdom and not his earth. Reading God's word has honestly been the most uplifting thing during my time here. I know that God is constantly reminding me to be an example...to be his hands and feet. Knowing this, I have to remember that in a sea full of chaos, I can't let myself get caught up in it. It's definitely hard at times but God tells us that as His children, He will never give us more than we can handle and will always be there to pick us up and push us onward. Im so glad that there are other Christians here that I can lean on and I hope that as the year goes on, we'll be able to support each other in difficult times.
I think right now, I want to work on getting along with the people on my floor since lot of them don't understand where mel and I are coming from because we are Christians. I really hope that we'll be able to show them that we do care about them and that they'll be able to see that we are different..but in a good way! : P
I'm..alone in my room right now hah..and i realize that i really do miss the people back home and at other universities. I miss my high school friends so much and of course my mom and sister. It's been a month.. and although it has gone by quickly, I still feel like ive been away from them for a long time. Thanksgiving is coming up, and i am stoked to be able to go back home and see everyone!
SOO at the moment i am working very hard on
1) studying for my Art History slide test on monday..and
2) geography paper also due monday
On top of that, i started getting a headache today and my nose is stuffy so its been making me feel tired and very...congested. ugh. its a gross feeling...but yea,
I don't even have any idea of what the rest of the year is going to be like, but I hope it will continue to get better and that i will be able to grow more in Christ..and get smarter too! bahaha...
oh boy, there's actually so much more to say...but just too much. lol.
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